so today was an ok day but was very tired and barely could stay awake in class. i still managed to learn some things but my day just got ruined and im in a horrible mood i fucked everything up and im paying the price. im hating myself right now and lost the only important thing to me. and the only thing that made me happy in a long time and its gone for good and its all my fault.

bored

Im sitting here supposed to be studying cardiac and memorizing all the veins and arteries and everything to do with blood the heart and all the vessels. This how ever is not the case i am not studying and im just contemplating many things. I have recently lost my girlfriend and i loved her very much but she left because i fucked up. I didn't do anything bad but I just kept doing the wrong things. I worried to much because I barely saw her all summer and then we broke up and I went crazy. She was the best thing to ever happen to me and she was gone. She was the only good thing in my life and i needed her. I miss her soo much it kills me. She is all I had i dont have any real friends because no one ever stays around and all the friends i had while we dated were her friends so i lost them all.

Thats enough sadness for today.

on another note girls who says its all a guys fault they get treated like shit it not true. ever since my ex broke up with me the only advice i have gotten from girls it to go get laid... this is not how i am so i wont go have random sex but if your going to complain about guys being assholes dont tell them to go get laid your just causing the problem.